Blow up.
Tuesday, August 19th, 2008- (posted by Diary of a Quitter)
one response- Categories: Sober Salon

It happened again.
Every few months, I’m unable to contain the mass of anger inside me and I blow up at my partner. Unsuprisingly, this tends to happen about a week before I get my period. For a long time, I wrote it off as PMS, but I’ve come to realize that I actually am that angry all the time. It’s just that when my hormones are raging, I can’t stuff it away and hide it as well as I usually can.
This blow up involved me angrily and loudly verbalizing ever nasty, bitter, resentful thought I’ve had over the past few months…
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My relationship (with my fiance of 8 years, telling, no?) is falling apart, and everyone but me seems to acknowledge and accept it.


Now that I’ve been off the drugs for almost nine months and I’m feeling more stable in my recovery from drug addiction, I’m starting to pay more attention to the myriad other ways that I’m dysfunctional. The main one that I am very tentatively starting to work on is my relationship with food (and eating, and body image.) Which is appropriate, I think, because my food/eating issues are very much connected to my drug-abuse issues.


I love this beautiful city that I’ve adopted as my home. Sure, it rains or is cloudy eight or nine months of the year, but when summer comes to town ~ the whole city celebrates.