Fellowship.
Dec 31, 09- (by JunkysWife)
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We had friends over tonight. It’s the first time we’ve had friends over in a long, long time. There have been folks, yes, but it’s been in emergency situations or when my husband is tattooing someone. This is the first time in years that we’ve had people over for dinner.
It might not seem like a big deal, but it feels like a victory for us. Having a space that is reasonable for guests…space that isn’t completely chaotic with the evidence of our mutual and separate craziness…it’s been a long time since we’ve been able to do it. We are able to get along. We are both conscious. Nobody has an agenda.
I cooked two lasagnas, one vegetarian and one not. I made a big salad and a pie. We set the table, and we said grace before we ate. There were candles and pieces of ice in the cups. Being able to pull all of these components together is a really big deal.
It’s been a hard year. I am afraid to be hopeful for the next year. Last year, I was hopeful for the next year, and I was facing one of the most painful of my life.
It does seem, though, that my life has turned a corner. It seems like my marriage is healing. It seems like I am sticking close to God, and finding doors opening for me along the way. It seems that my husband is reaching out and participating in healthy community. He’s showing up for me in our marriage, and more importantly, he’s showing up for himself.
I was talking to a girlfriend earlier today, and I realized as I was talking that I have a good man. My man, these days, is a good man.
Isn’t that something?
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I’m so happy for you, you totally deserve it! MWAH!!!!!
Luv and hugs!
How nice was this to read? Pretty darn nice, I tell you.
This past year was really hard and very painful for me, but things really started to change for me this year, and it’s getting better.
I’m happy to hear of your progress and gratitude. Wishing you the best in 2010.
I’m happy for you. You deserve it.