I’m So Totally Fixed (Almost)
Dec 31, 08- (by Mama MPJ)
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For the past several months, I have been working the 12 Steps around my own codependency, and this week, I completed Step 12. You may think that I am typing this post out for you to read, using my human arms and hands, but actually, having ascended to a higher plane of being, I am now a ball of pure white light, controlling the computer with the energy of my thoughts alone. I wish you could see me. I’m blinding. Actually, I suggest you turn the brightness on your monitor up while you read this just to feel the connection.
Ok, ok. Maybe I’m exaggerating just a little. I do still have hands, but I think they are glowing slightly. Oh, wait. That’s because I have the brightness on my monitor turned up. Drat.
Still, working the Steps with my online group has been a powerful experience. We ran through the Steps really, really fast: spending just one to two weeks on each. And while that was definitely exhausting, that very exhaustion and stress brought some of my issues into very sharp relief. It was like my recovery doctor stuck me on a treadmill and increased the slope and speed to determine at what point my spiritual heart would give out. And with the test results back in, I can say that I learned that I have some serious issues with authority to be worked out.
But I also gained a much closer relationship with my God and learned huge lessons in prayer and humility. I haven’t written about those yet, because just talking to my husband about them made me burst into tears, and I don’t have a way to communicate those emotions yet. And I grew in my relationship with the wonderful women who worked through the process with me.
Finishing the Steps just before the end of the old year and having the opportunity to reflect (at this natural time of reflection) on the progress I’ve made and the work I have yet to do is a wonderful way to start the new year. Even if I’m not quite a perfect sphere of white light yet.
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I don’t know MPJ - this screen is pretty damn bright! Kudos to you!
Positively brilliant! So glad I read this post on the first day of my new year, it gives hope and shows decision and determination of a spiritually connected light glowing very brightly indeed!
I’m so grateful to have taken that particular journey with you. I love you, MPJ! Happy New Us!!
Congratulations! Keep working on that new you!
Keep basking in the light — it’s amazing what you can do when you work at it. and please, keep sharing, because it keeps us working on it too.