In God’s Hands.
Nov 28, 08- (by JunkysWife)
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- Sober Salon
I spoke with my husband today, which alleviated much of my stress from yesterday. He seems to be in a really good place, and I’m trying really, really hard not to get too excited or to withhold positivity that might help encourage him. I’ve felt so many times like he might be taking a turn for the better, and I’ve been disappointed each time, but this seems like it’s for real for real…and I really, really, really want him to get better.
He seems happy to be where he is, and the doctors and his social worker are working pretty hard to get him some help. They are seeking a treatment center where he can continue to receive methadone maintenance, but that will also provide him with a jumpstart to his recovery. He is ready and willing to participate in a program, and he says that even if they turn him loose without a plan, which he doesn’t expect to happen, that he is going to go to 90 meetings in 90 days.
He says that he’s given up, and that he’s turned his life over to God. Whatever happens to him from here on out, he says, is going to be God’s will, and he’s not fighting it anymore. He’s asked the social worker about help with finding a job when he gets out, and he says that the social worker is optimistic about being able to help him in all kinds of ways.
I wish that I could let go and let God so completely. I’ve gotten better, but I never have been able to keep my hands all the way out of the direction my life is flowing. I’ve seen, though, that things start to flow when I take my hands off…letting go of my husband helped him to begin facing the mess he’s made of his life in his disease, and things have moved along much more quickly.
I hope it keeps moving.
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This sounds like good news! I’m glad to hear that he’s got people working to help him.
This blog has inspired me to finally ‘get’ it: Everything is truly unfolding as it should. God give me strength to let go too.
Keep Coming Back, JW! Recovery is a process, not a destination, and you’re moving right along.
Glad to hear that things are going like they are. Maybe all the turmoil earlier is worth who he has ended up with now. My husband did not get sober until I completely let go. It was the hardest thing in the world for me to do but ultimately it was what changed everything. Hope to grab some coffee this weekend….
Glad to hear that things seem to be heading in a positive direction. Maybe all of the turmoil of the last week or so was worth his getting to the people that sound like they are the “right” ones at this time. I know that my husband did not get sober until I completely let go. It was the hardest thing in the world to do but ultimately had a lot to do with his finally getting into a recovery that has stuck for 3+ years now. Hoping to grab coffee this weekend. Glad that you got to speak to him today
Sounds like you’ve been through hell this week. So have I. I am so so so glad that he is finally getting the help he needs. You better take advantage of this precious time for yourself. I’m so happy for you. Your blogs are a mirror of my life. I can’t stress how happy I am for you.
I think you’re very brave, and handling what you’ve been handed with remarkable strength. I think, too, that many addicts only progress when they reach some kind of crisis, and even if it’s hell perhaps that’s what your husband needs to own his condition and work his own program.
I’m praying that you can keep letting this in the hands of your Higher Power, without conditions and without wanting a particular outcome. Trust the Power, trust the Process. Much love.
God, it must be soooo hard! I always think how complicated this is for you & you don’t even have children in the mix together…sigh. But you are moving forward-forward…’tis so goodly…:)