proving the environment doesn’t matter
Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008- (by LaRee)
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- Category: Sobriety Salon
I haven’t written in a few days because I’ve been enjoying a spur-of-the-moment vacation in Colorado. My sober friends B & C invited me to their family cabin in the Northern Rockies for the week. I began a gloriously descriptive post yesterday about the beautiful land, the serene surroundings, and the rejuvinating air. It probably would have made you all puke!
However, being a shining alcoholic specimen, I will now relieve you all of such potential sappiness. Today, for reasons which do not matter, I was a lump. I was tired, and forlorn, and negative, and pessimistic. Colorado was still beautiful, even though it rained. I bought a fishing license, which took two hours after B left his cell phone in the office which was closed when we went back to retrieve it. I went trout fishing, although I first wrapped the line and lure around a tree, and then around an underwater log which culminated in a snapped rod. I got a migraine headache and slept the afternoon away in an effort to escape it. I volunteered to make coffee for everyone after dinner, and being unfamiliar with the machine, ran coffee over the countertop–twice–instead. I’m moping. It’ll pass.
One of the focal sayings in my recovery community is “24 hours today.” It means I can start my day over at ANY time. My day does not have to be from sunrise to sunset or from 12 AM to 11:59 PM. I can start it over whenever I need to start it again. Today, I had a lot of re-starts (see above paragraph for clues!). The Serenity Prayer also came in handy. It was just one of those days. It was just one of those days. Shit happens. Perhaps I’m actually lucky. The way I figure it, getting all the shit out of the way in one day is better than spreading it out over the entire week! Don’t you think? I’m quite confident tomorrow will be a much smoother day. If not, I’ll just start it again.
and again.
and again…
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You must have received my karma from the week-end! At least your shit was all contained in one day - I had a whole week-end of us. Actually, being on the “reading” end of your blog, it was pretty damn funny! I’m glad that you can share your “stuff” and then start over. It’s something I have to do again
and again
and again…
Thanks for giving me a smile today.
I think the blahs can hit anywhere - it really is about your state of mind - and soemtimes - no matter how hard we try - we just cant get that positive to stick.
Hang in there.
Cat