I am a wife of a sex addict with the discovery of this being 16 months ago i found that the ground beneath me was gone, I had been living a lie. I believed that my life was good...even the hard times, i loved my husband and I knew it would all change...a things do. The shock almost killed me. never sleeping never eating...months....until I was diagnosed with PTSD. meds and all...getting better. and now....after my husband admitted to addiction, he has found that our spiritual journey can be the framework to justify his sexual desires and appetite. he left 2 months ago...to get back on adult friend finder. where he finds partners and orgies and gang bangs....telling me he loves the chase and to pleasure others, and that these people are good friends. These people are advertising for sex. He believes that he and the others are liberated and evolved. i am left here in devistation. much better than last year...i get out of bed and force myself to do things. but i am alone, and who in the world could understand? will i ever know love, will i ever heal, will all of the scramble brains find their way back to their respective places, and will I be normal. the world looks different...i see ugliness that I didnt before.

December-13-2009 11:57:13 PM

Tags: sex addict spouse

Category: Right now I am


 

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